Hi everyone I new here not sure how to start??? I am married since 2014. Met in 2010 . Had nice time together. We have lovely son 7 year old but my relationship having ups and downs for long time. It's been like that for a while. I have thoughts to leave him but I am so scared. I am worry about my son how he will take that. He has autism and needs a lot attention. I am struggling with my mental health. Be honest my husband makes me like this. I have been in touch with women aid few times but l changed few times my mind to leave so they had close the case. I starting heat myself for that. I know that being with the man will destroy my life and my mental health completely. I was thinking about suicide but l can do that!!! My son needs me. I have to bee for him. I am about 50 now and feel my life is finished. No future for me.ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜?????