Good evening all, I have myself in a quandary, a girl from my past has reappeared, admits she was wrong, at the time, her head was in a bad place, she had lashed out at me and asked if she could give us another go. Towards the end of our previous relationship, she began acting oddly at times, complained that I didn't spend enough time with her (I wear several hats and have to be available to do what I do), but I make plenty of time for her. It was discussed and agreed early into the relationship, that as I worked from home, I couldn't stay at her house during the week, but she was welcome to stay at mine and if she needed to go back home, I could drop her off on my way to meetings and appointments, she agreed to this, but after a few visits, she decided she didn't like my home and we went back to weekends only, though I could and did stop off for a few hours if I was on my way back home and passing. One night on the way to bed, she announced, "I'm cutting down having sex with you, it's become predictable and boring", given that we were very adventurous and experimental, I asked, "how can you say that"? She didn't answer, so I went into the spare bedroom. The following morning I went down stairs and found a note next to the kettle, "Take what stuff you have here and don't come back, we're done". I couldn't understand it, when we were good we were very good and life was hunky dory. I grabbed my gear and left, broken hearted, always feeling that I could have done more and made more of an attempt to spend a night or two during the week with her, it plagued me for years.
So here I am, surprised and in a way happy that she's admitted this and offered an olive branch, but the suspicious part of me is kicking in and yelling at me to keep away and let her get on with her life and me with mine. Of course, I'm trying to weigh up the options as we all do, but my brain is sending out warning signals like a Roman Candle, though my heart is trying to convince me to give it a try.
For some reason the idea of looking at my horoscope popped into my head and here is my horoscope for tomorrow.
"Your expectations are not unrealistic. Don’t gaslight yourself into believing you’re the culprit here, Aquarius. You may not get what you want from this relationship, you have the permission to step back. You have the permission to focus on your inner temple and give yourself the love, care and tenderness you deserve. The answers you are seeking may or may not come to you immediately, and that’s okay. Be patient with both yourself and the Universe".
For a very level headed and confident guy, I admit to feeling a little lost. What do I do?