Just a rant

[heelarh]

I've always struggled to have relationships. I'm just that person who men never fawn over or want to commit to. I just chick it up to fate in life.

I come from a culture where those who are married and have kids are ranked more relevant than those who aren't. I don't have strong family ties because they're dysfunctional and do not build me up as such.

I had a relationship which ended a few years ago when I was in my late 30s, I gave it my all and really tried to make it work but it didn't. since then, I haven't met someone new.

I know my ex owes me nothing, but I still carry the pain of him leaving me in the way that he did. It's hard to explain but I feel that more than ever, I really needed the relationship to work.

Since then, I've been shabbily treated by friends and families. Im invisible and insignificant to them.

I know it's hard that the relationship ended. So many relationships end and try not to be so hard on yourself as if it were a reflection of you as its not. It's not your fault your family is dysfunctional. You sound like a kind and genuine person with low self esteem? I think a lot of the time it's the most kindest people with low self esteem that can get treated the most poorly