So , I was brought up by a very strict lady, not my real mother. This was in the 80's so maybe normal back then. She did run a good household, we were very well dressed and very clean and well groomed, washed every evening and fed well. We had chores we had to do and would get pocket money at the weekend. We were allowed out to play , everything was on time, we knew every minute of every day what would happen, breakfast time, lunch, bath time bedtime etc.
She was a no nonsense lady and we would often get thrashed, really thrashed. There was no emotion from her, she said jump you asked how high. I was thrashed for things like getting my socks wet, or reading a book in bed when I should have been sleeping , she swung me by my hair and dug her nails in me. She punched me a couple of times, there was blood on the wall, she said tell anyone about this I will do it again. But I always respected the way I was brought up and put it down to strictness?
Anyway someone in the family did something to me that they shouldn't have SA ,and when it came out she lied to the whole family and the person also got away with it. The whole family turned against me and I was on my own from the age of 16. I didn't speak to any of them for 20 years.
My life is absolutely fine, I live a quiet life always trying to do better and brought up some happy healthy kids. Im a very well balanced person. This lady, my strict mother and I have been in touch for a few years. I'm not sure why but im always concerned about her and her health and trying to make sure we get on. Shes now an elderly lady, tells me all this sweet things, you are my little girl and we got on so well. Then we called eachother. It seemed to have gone OK. But 6 months later I've never heard from her again, I know she's fine. But I feel guilty as hell and feel I should get back in touch as she's elderly but then I think back to my past and think why should I? But then I think life is short, but maybe she didn't like me even though we had a laugh on the phone??
Sorry its long