Partner and I split after two years.
He got very sick and I ended up looking after him even though I have my own young children and a full time job. He became depressed and lay in bed half the day. Then he got moody and grumpy and refused therapy or help.
I couldn't cope anymore so I finished the relationship
A year on, we reconnected. He is s back At work in management, living independently, had had a year of therapy and seems like the man I met three years ago.
We've decided to give it another go and are enjoying the time together. My free time is limited as I have my kids all the time and I don't want them hugely involved although they are delighted that we are together again. I'm happy with seeing each other once per week to start.
He is also really happy we're together again but I'm wondering why I'm not jumping around with excitement and anticipation at the thought of seeing him every time.
I was terribly sad and lonely when we broke up but got used to my own company and freedom so to speak.
My children are my absolute priority in both attention and time so there is no room for movement there. He is perfectly ok with this.
Perhaps I'm worried or will fall apart again. I can't put my finger on it ....