I feel really guilty but I know the relationship for me has been over for a while. He lies, calls me names and I have been walking on eggshells for a few years now. He has bad health but for me this doesn't excuse it. I carry the full load and am worn out. I don't deserve to be called a cunt or listen to constant anger at inanimate objects let alone me. He sees no fault in his own behaviour and I can't convince him otherwise, it's pointless.
We've now got to decide how to tell the kids and how this will all work. He is from a different city and will go back there so the logistics aren't clear. He's asking for my suggestions but none of them are good enough and he's not making any of his own.
I know I'll be happier without him as much as I do love him but this part feels really scary. I'm being left without a car and can't afford to buy one so will struggle with working days in the office plus clubs etc for the kids. The kids have constant parties and clubs on weekends so that won't help with contact unless he stays here which I don't really want.
I feel pretty lost at the minute.