Is this normal or is this insecurity crazy

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I can't get past the thought that I am incredibly unattractive.

Im 5'8 and size 20ish. BMI is 33. I just feel like im an embarrassment to everyone - especially DP. I feel like he should be ashamed to be with me because of how I look. If im out with my friends I always wear dark clothes and sit in the shadows etc. if im with DP I assume people are looking at him and feeling sorry for him for being with me........

Is it normal to feel like this? Do other people think like this? I know some people say they don't even think about stuff like that but are they really thinking that?

It makes me so sad

Are your DH and friends also plus size or are you the only one? Have you recently put on weight?

Some of my friends are bigger sone are quite petit

DP is just average - not small and not big just normal

I've not put on weight, if anything I've lost a bit. DP has always known me this sort of size