Hey,
I'm not sure if anyone can help with some advice but I can't get out of this horrible circle I've got myself caught up in.
Me and ex broke up for a year - got back together for 3 months and then broke up again due to him being abusive - emotionally, physically, invading my privacy and stealing from me. Then making me feel crazy about it all even though he knew he done it.
We were together a long time but even though he said he wants to sell our house he's not doing anything about it - and I can't do anything about it unless he agrees.
I'm normally quite strong and stand my ground but the last few days where he's left me in peace I'm now starting to panic I've made the wrong decision. Every now and then I get this panic in my chest - the realisation that my whole life has changed yet I can't move on until the house has sold. Solicitors have told me I'll need at least £10K to force sale (I don't have it) so now what? I have this deep sadness of loss and I miss him - I try to tell myself I hate him but I love him. It doesn't make sense and I don't know why I feel like this. Why do I crave his cuddles and love ? After everything he's done and I still can't imagine my life without him.