Hi ,
I have been seeing this man in and off for four months and I'm not going to lie he has grown on me so much. We both have feelings for each other . Him more than me but that's just the way I am . It takes me a long while to feel like that. I am rather closed off .
It's been a long time since I have been on a date with some one new and just came out of a 13 year relationship. About 8 months ago . This person came in to my life when I least expected it .
We always meet up and just enjoy each other's company. He seems so kind and genuine. He's invited me to his apartment Friday evening and the plan is to make some cocktails, order an Italian and watch a few films. He's even offered me to stay the night which I most likely will. He said he would take the sofa and I could have his bed .
I don't feel that uncomfortable with him so said he could share the bed too. I know something is going to happen but I don't know if I'm ready for it . We haven't even kissed as of yet because I keep putting it off.
The thought of having sex with him is really scaring me and I can't put my finger really on why just apart from me being emotionally closed off .
I want too and get excited and nervous thinking of it but then as the day goes by I start regretting my whole decision of even going up there but I know that's just the worried side taking over .
How do people get over this and once you are doing the deed is it ok ? I know I sound so immature right now but I am struggling with my feelings .
Thankyou