For background I've recently over the summer moved out of the marital home with my 2 children. My new house is full of peace and I'm very very happy. As are the children. We moved from an emotional abusive home with a lot of financial control. No real intimate relationship with seperated husband, by his own admission he withheld affection and intimacy because he wasn't happy with how I cleaned the house!! In hindsight I should have left a long long time ago especially as I knew he'd had/was having a fling with someone at work. I think I was clinging on to the ideal of what we could have been as a family of 4. Anyhow I'm in a much better place now and I'm financially independent, calm and peaceful home, happy children and just pleasing myself. Which is something I've not done in a long time as I've always had to explain what I've spent and where I've been.
Out of no where, an ex, whom I've not spoken to for about 10 years or seen for about 14 years got in touch over a subject that was on the news lately. Random I know but it was a mutual interest. Asked how I am and if I'd like a catch up. After lots of arguing with myself and with encouragement from my mum and friend... I went.
It was wonderful, he was interested in what I said, we had a laugh, shared stories of the past decade, still on the same wave length. There is a bit of an age gap and when we were first together I was in my early twenties and him in his late thirties. I felt overwhelmed as didn't have life experience and after a year of dating we parted ways. It was sad but I was at university.
But I feel on cloud 9 since I left him, we've said it would be great to see eachother again.
My point of this post is that I'm just wondering if I'm doing the right thing, I'm entitled to enjoy someone's company and feel like I'm interesting and still have some charm? I've done nothing wrong? I deserve to have some adult company and go and do nice things?
I've been starved of this for so long and lived in a marital home where I've been the single parent for so long and it was so lonely.
Thoughts!