I've been with my boyfriend for almost 6 years the first few years where good and I was so happy, and slowly things go worse, emotional abuse started, and has progressively got worse over time, he's always right, I'm always wrong, if I step out of line I get an ear full, the blackmail if I don't do something he will go out and get drunk, he hits himself and my walls when angry, doesn't work never has. We have two children together, he lives in my hometown 6 hours away from him own, I know what I've wanted for a long time but the fear of what he would do if I left is overwhelming, he loves his children to bits and would never just move back to his family without them.. and then another narrative plays in.. very recently (literally only 48 hours) an ex co worker (my old boss) has been in contact with me, he's always been attractive to me but I always kept my distance because I knew that was right, when we worked together it was always flirty and playful so I had to leave, but now, now I just can't hold myself back, he makes me nervous and excited, he gives me a thrill I've not felt in so long I've fallen apart sooo much over the year I'm so desperate for any type of attention and love. It's wrong but I'm trapped please leave advise. Please save the comments on how pathetic I sound, I'm a just a woman who is genuinely frightened to leave. I've been through enough trauma and stress to last me a life time and I'm only mid 20s I can't haddle anymore pain.