So long story short, I fell in love with a woman at work who I left my wife for (my marriage had long been broken). We got engaged and were planning a marriage and then BANG, everything changed and she was running around behind my back with her ex. Months of manipulation and gaslighting left me thinking I was going mad before I was finally able to trust my intuition and walk away.
Fast forward 2 years and she contacts me again. I’m in a relationship with a new partner whose only ‘issue’ was that she wasn’t my ex. In those 2 years I still loved my ex and so as soon as I got her email I knew I was in trouble. We meet up and she admits everything she did. I decide to forgive her and then BANG, all those feelings are back. She declares her love for me, we get engaged, go on holiday and plan on moving in together. Her behaviour changes to how it was last time and now we’re not engaged and I’m not moving in. We broke up completely but now her behaviour is confusing me again.
We’re now just friends although I have told her that I still have feelings for her. The thing confusing me is that she video calls me twice a day for a couple of hours in total, she texts me all day, she sends me photos of her in bikinis she’s chosen for her holiday with the girls. We had plans to go away for Xmas and she tells me that her son is refusing to go now as I won’t be there. When I asked if she’d cancelled the holiday she said she hasn’t. She has another ex that she speaks to and she’s repeatedly told him that there will never ever be anything between them again. Yet, unless I’ve missed it because I just want to be with her, she hasn’t said that to me.
I have male and female friends and I don’t speak to them as often as I speak with her. I don’t know if I’m reading too much into things because of my feelings for her or is she acting as more than a friend? What would the signs be that we are more than friends?