This is a long one, I don’t need advice just to get this out there. I have been with my partner for 13 years. Two children together, a great relationship until about 3/4 years ago. He started drinking and taking cocaine, this became a huge problem lies, money being spent, he would work 5 days a week and only bring in £50 a week, I supported the house and kids on my own. We separated for a couple of weeks start of this year was in the process of him moving back in, getting on great really, he then got a job working away, 10 days at a time.. after 3/4 weeks I seen he had been looking up local escorts. He made a £70 payment to one and still swears blind it was for a video call.. this was on and off for two months chatting to escorts. He signed up to a dating site and I could read the messages he was typing and he wrote them. Asking to meet up and do sexual acts to some women. This broke me I really lost my mind stopped eating all I done was cry. I just felt I couldn’t move on. I started talking to someone else, I moved so fast and had Sex with him. A stranger, I feel so low and disgusting about it. I just can’t believe I done it, I just tried to move on I suppose. I am now back with my long term partner, there is no drugs anymore he has stopped everything back working locally and it’s baby steps but I’m happy to try make a happy relationship with him. He knows about what has happened and he is happy to move on too. As I say I’m just wondering if anyone else has been in a similar position, I just feel guilty, and lonely right now x