How can I figure out my dream (goal in life)?

[WhatsMyDream]

My DH has started a business that's exactly what he wants to do. I am very supportive of this business/dream of his.

As he has been so busy I have been picking up the slack at home, especially over the summer with the kids. He is happy for me to be home with them, we both think it's nicer when possible for children to be cared for at home by a parent. Older DC in school, younger DC at home with me until next year. There's no childcare to speak of in our town.

I was due to go back to work one day a week this week. DH got his days mixed up and I had to ask to change my day this week (it would have been my first day) New boss said the other day I could work didn't suit. Then it turned out DH didn't check the times properly and I could have worked.

I've said he doesn't value my time and he is able to pursue his dream because I'm allowing him to (not as in giving permission, but enabling him to work all the time). He said I should be happy because this is my dream and what else have I wanted except for kids?

To be fair, my "dream" is just to do my job part time and potter about with the kids. I don't want to change the world. But I feel sad that he is not even recognizing my contribution to his dream

Oh I sound like such a mopey moan. I don't even know what my question is

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theres a few things wrapped up in your post aren't there

sounds like you are confused about whether being happy with your part time job and looking after your children is in fact enough for you or whether if you looked and thought about it you'd find a different true passion

and that you feel a bit resentful of your husband not properly supporting your part time job

and that your husband is bit dismissive of you and your work.

Issues with your husband you need to speak to him about directly.

The first one is more tricky - maybe you are happy and that is your true passion - if so, that's fine. there's no need to feel embarrassed or look for some grand calling. not everyone is going to be some business entreprenuer. Thank god.

if you aren't entirely fulfilled, then start by thinking about what you have enjoyed in your life, when you are happiest, what activities (at work and for leisure) you enjoy most. is there anything that you feel strongly about? Get a note pad or open a note page on your phone, and every time you think of or notice something that fits add it to your list. after a while your list will give you a picture of your passions and interests, and then you can start to think of careers or jobs that fit. Or make one up that suits you.

@SirQuintusAureliusMaximus
Thank you. Yes, there's a few things going on.
You are right, everyone isn't meant to be an entrepreneur and maybe I do have to be "not embarrassed" if all I want to do is work a little and be home with the kids. That's ok too, you're right