Well this has been a year from hell
it started fine with 10th anniversary trip away then a couple month later my mother in law suddenly can’t stand up bad leg maybe? No tumour and she died five weeks from her first fall.
my father in law has Alzheimer’s and stoma poor health needs us while she’s in hospital and mentions week three a side pain. I spend every day with husband and he taking care of him so during a hospital visit he’s a bit breathless and we get him checked. Stage 4 lung cancer.
we move in with him and he does die six weeks later.when both died I arrange everything funerals life insurance etc. whilst caring for our three kids and dealing with everyone as husband is obviously grief stricken.
our relationship had ups and downs over the years he text others I messed up money but for the past 2/3years nothing almost perfect and during this time we worked as a team and we were good. I booked a last minute trip to Spain to help our sadness as funerals delayed whilsy there I took pictures by the pool on hubs phone my kid smashed mine on a ride day before no biggy (Snapchat went years ago for bad reasons) and a Snapchat notification
I then get the feeling, and check his phone
videos from a close close friend during this time
i flip then find out he bought her a vibrator and then got me the same one wtf.
they both cry apologise beg etc. if her husband finds out he will literally go back to his country. Our kids go the same school and are besties. I’m heartbroken literally in agony. If I stay I’m a mug of I leave I take something else from my kids who have been through enough. I get he is a mess losing his parents but I did nothing wrong I don’t deserve this.
I don’t know how to act or what to do I’m just sort of detached really then kids go to bed I sleep maybe a couple of hours next to him then I’m up. Even went on 3am drive because I’m just lost.