Three of my best friends have got engaged this year. I’m beyond delighted for them.
Meanwhile I’m absolutely alone and lonely. Late 30s. Been on three disastrous dates lately and I screen to death on the apps. The men mostly are beyond hideous.
I’ve had many boyfriends over the years but they’ve all been shit. I can’t seem to meet a decent guy.
One of my friends is a stunningly beautiful woman, a gorgeous personality to match. Kind, funny, super smart. She never met a guy and has gone it alone with a baby. She’s very happy. In her 40s. I often think if she couldn’t meet someone, there’s no chance in hell for me.
Ideally I’d like to meet a man to start a family with but I have zero hope. I listen to advice from dating coaches and even spoke to one who said they have no doubt I will meet someone - they have even problematic clients who can find love, and after doing it for 20 years, they can assure me if I keep on dating, I will.
But in my heart of hearts, I just don’t believe it. Isn’t the definition of insanity doing something over and over again with zero success?
Not sure what the point of my post is. Feeling particularly blue this evening and looking for support/kind words.