Ill change a few details so i cant be identified but the "facts" are:
Ive lived alone wirh my children for a long time.
Full time stressful job plus overtime.
Own business that is purely an investment for children and in 5 years i can close it down. It is costing me money at the moment due to interest rates so very stressful. Hopefully there is a resolution for this but not confirmed.
So i am aware i may be over reacting due to stress.
3 weeks ago i broke my arm so cant drive. I have been struggling to walk to bus stop (quite far away) because of heat. Shopping is harder. I can order online but things i need daily im trekking to the shop for as well as the usual working, running a house etc.
Bf of 2 years hasnt offered to help once. We live separately and recently its emerged that he always wantd to live separately. I dont as i think life would be easier in a couple eg if something breaks not 100% my problem to fix.
Ive said im strggling with shopping at the moment.
He has told his mate that the accident was my fault. It was but its still not nice that he said that.
There is a household thing i need to sort out (cant explain without being outing). Very difficult with broken arm and he has said ill help you when im back from my holiday next week. He also said he would help me if i needed a lift to the shops then. My issue is i dont believe him. He hasnt helped until now despite me asking. So he is basically saying 4 weeks after you need help i will help you but i dont think he will. He is away for 3 nights next week.
Im not usually so needy and can look after myself but its been a horrendous 3 weeks and i feel like what is the point of having a bf if the one time i need help he doesnt help me. A friend came to visit and got me some flowers the day after the accident. She mentioned that when i spoke to him on the phone he just spoke about himself and didnt ask if i was ok.
When ive brought up something perfectly reasonable before he made out i was being ridiculous so i know he will react badly if i say i feel really alone and crap and basically still single as i get no support. If it was the other way round i would definitely be helping him because i wouldnt want to watch him struggle.
I may be over reacting as life is stressful at the moment.
Any thoughts or advice?
Im not going to say anything else to him before he goes away but i will when he gets back.