STBXH had affair with another married women and left the family home at the end of last year. We have three children together with the youngest being two. It was and still is an horrid time but I’m moving through the sheer shock and hurt and day to day, I am coping. My children are as settled as they could be and their normal lives have continued despite the bomb dropped into our family. H was abusive with gaslighting and threats abound and it took the husband of his lovely affair partner to tell me the affair was continuing despite my husband telling me the opposite. Anyway that has happened, can’t be changed. We are separated and he is living outside of the family home. Sees the children for supper two times a week and one full day in the weekend. Won’t do overnights, says the children don’t want to. My point is he leaves them back all trumped up for his nights out with goodness knows who and I feel such pain everytime. I know it’s irrational - he was cheating right under my nose but I’m just wondering when this gut wrenching hurt will subside. Will it ever? Thanks.