Yesterday we got into a fight with my husband I was being a bitch the other day because his presence was annoying me and the fact that I had all this mental load and he was doing nothing about it just letting the to do lists get longer and not taking time off work either to help with the kids. I am working full time and watching the kids whilst working so not getting any work done so I had to sit in a pub and work all evening the other night so working until 11pm and then I slept on the sofa and woke up at 5 am and did some work before the children woke up so I thought I could log off at 9 until 11 and sort the children out then log back on to work at lunchtime.
I felt like I had got a lot done that evening and morning and was feeling a little less pressure. But when my husband woke up and came downstairs the next morning he was fuming and said go and work upstairs if that's all you can think about and care about and he kept on going on and on and kept on saying it and would not stop. I snapped and told him to go to hell! Then he said he was already in hell!! That has stuck in my head now and I am no longer talking to him!
in order to get around working from home with the children I thought I would log on early and take a chunk of my morning off to help them with breakfast and some maths and writing or spellings and reading before logging back to work after that was done and their lunch sorted. Then I thought I would work the evenings to make up my time and targets so I put on the calendar that I am out every evening to work. Which has obviously pissed him off but he has not told me he was taking any time off this summer at all!!!! I should not have to ask him to suggest it! I have had issues with him in the past where he gets lazy because he expects me to do the planning and arranging and thinking so I am seeing if he can think and make plans himself.
The fact that he said he is already in hell has really pissed me off. I am not keeping him here.. he can go if he wants to. After that outburst I flipped and said you want a fight first thing in the morning and flipped and he only stopped when I said do you want me to go back on the meds! I have only just come off post natal anti depressants in April and that was after kicking him out of the house.
Then I cried all day yesterday and could not work so just had a shower and cried in the shower.
Then I took my sons football, and he was saying I was going to take them and he was acting all nice and normal and said he thought I could do my work. But I just left the house without saying a word because he fucked up my day and I could not get any work done because I was so upset.
I really cannot stand him and how he is making my life difficult!