I’ve been in a bad relationship for 29 years . When my daughter was born I experienced postnatal depression.
According to my partner I was lazy and a shit mum .
He made me pregnant 18 months after (without my consent I didn’t want another baby because I believed I was a shit mum)
I was too anxious to seek the morning after pill .
when I was 3 months pregnant with my Son he attacked me whilst drunk . I received a black eye and he kicked me in my private parts . I bleed but baby was ok .
There has been numerous things happen since then .My son is now in his 20s and has shielded me from his fathers fists .
im desperate to leave but I don’t work as I have anxiety and depression. I feel like unloved been grind down to nothing I feel so low and have become detached from society .
The violence has stopped now because I know my place .
I know how to behave so not to upset my Husband . I have contacted women’s aid but no help has been provided . I get told to stay where I am as we own a home .
Just need to find a way out of here .