It was my birthday yesterday. Whilst I’m not usually a fan of birthdays, to my horror I ended up crying on a night out which is massively unlike me. :(
a month ago I had a fairly mutual split from a 6 -month relationship. I don’t want him back and I know it was for the best but seeing him in passing yday has dragged up a load of stuff for me and I don’t understand why it’s still hurting so much!
im early thirties and this guy came on very strong at the beginning, did kind things for me and was great. He had intro’d me to his family, mates & two weeks prior to breaking up we’d been on holiday abroad. No arguments.Two weeks after we get home his behaviour changed in terms of contact/being distant and he admitted his heart wasn’t in it etc. on some level I felt the same way.
he also told me he felt we were more like mates but that he hadn’t felt any intimacy between us - despite us being close on holiday - and that he didn’t feel deeper for me past the early stage. I was left wondering why it took nearly six months to figure it out but I have been getting on with things and trying not to dwell.
but not hearing from him yesterday (and seeing him ironically) has really stung and I’m cross with myself for caring! He obviously doesn’t owe me anything but I feel totally discarded and strung along by someone who was pretending to be into me for a fairly long time. A few glasses of wine and this all came out!
im so tired of going through this with people at my age (34). For me meeting someone’s family is a big deal so the feeling of being misled is actually worse than the break up itself. Like, he was never into me at all. I feel totally played and that is more heartbreaking than no longer being in the relationship.
I would really love some wisdom as I nurse a very bad hangover and puffy face.
thank u for reading !