I've just been through (still sort of going through) a really awful time in my life. I don't want to type a sob story. But it my husband having an affair was one element and that wasn't even the worst bit.
I was on autopilot through most of it, but I've come out the other side damaged, depressed and very isolated.
I realise I've detached hugely from people, and it's sort of bugging me that I don't think people in my life have been supportive.
I'm really not sure what I should expect, but I feel like it was pretty obvious the things I was going through were really horrible but I didn't feel like anyone actually cared.
I remember for example my child being quite unwell and me being really terrified and getting a dew WhatsApps and that's it.
I remember a few texts and the odd call about my husbands affair, but really no tangible support of any kind while everything fell apart.
I was fairly newly married and raised my kids alone and I don't think any of my siblings (I have 5) ever once really acknowledged it was hard.
Actually one had repeatedly compared it to raising their DOG.
My life's been harder than theirs. I don't blame anyone. I had a child relatively young and it was always a struggle.
Not once though did anybody babysit. Or help tangibly. I feel a but like that just sort of looked down at me as I scraped my way through.
It's been a really hard few years and I feel strangely lonely. Like not a single person has ever empathised with any of it.
They think I should have left my husband and probably disapprove that I didn't. Probably lots reading this will too.
Getting through all that's happened to me has taken a toll. It would have done no matter what I did. I just feel tired, very old , very alone.
I wonder if it's normal to feel like people just don't care. Like they judge you instead of having meaningful empathy.
I feel like I'd just like a hug.