Haven't spoken about this matter, only to one family member and that's it.
I need opinions, advice.. help? I don't know but I need to write it down and hoping someone can give me some advice on it.
I have one son. I left his father a few months ago as I thought the grass was greener on the other side. The relationship itself wasn't bad.. few bickers here and there, but I got stuck in a rut and I upped and left to be with someone else who is a married man (separated) who has a few kids himself.
I moved a few hours away from all my family and friends so I don't know anyone here.
The father to my child got with someone else and they are now expecting their first baby together.
Here is where it gets tricky.
First part..
I believe I am in some kind of controlling relationship.
I do not want to go into detail in case he somehow comes across this but I have spoken to a professional and they have confirmed its the typical behaviour of domestic violence. (No physical violence)
I have no where to stay with family, I have all my stuff here and I have no money behind me.
Second part..
I miss my boys daddy. All of this has shown me how much of a mistake I've made and I still love him. The worst part is, He feels the same about me but its all such a mess :(
His new partner is expecting and she's just as controlling as my new partner.
My new partners kids adore me and I have such a good relationship with them, I don't want to hurt them :(
I just don't know what to do.
I speak to my baby's daddy every day nearly and we both are literally stuck.
Both wanting one another back, just don't know how to do it with no house to call a home or money behind us.