Feeling super sad today

[Lifeafternarcabuse]

Hi all
You might recognise my username I posted recently about something I did which was appalling the post got removed which I understand.

I realise now thanks to all your comments I need some help with dealing with my feelings especially when someone has damaged trust and broke your heart a little so thanks for that advice I'm seeking that help.

I'm realising during our 15 month relationship that there were lots of things that crossed my trust boundary and lots of things wrong in the relationship and the relationship was doomed anyway! Him messaging othwr women, in appropriate comments to another 2 women and the general lots of talk but no follow up etc etc

It's day 2 today since the incident happened and I became a shit verson of myself and I'm super sad. I'm also very annoyed because had I not done what I did (I slapped him) then non of this could be blamed on me does that sound ridiculous?

His sister who I have never met has blocked me on Instagram so I guess he's telling people I slapped him hence why I'm getting blocked and I feel like if they knew the lead up to me doing this they would see how I lost it...not justifying it and it should not of happened but I can see now how I managed to act so unlike me and Lash out.

Again I'm not justifying myself at all here! I'm in the wrong 100%

When does this stop feeling so bad?

When you forgive yourself and put it down to a mistake and learn from it,
are you the poster who had her keys in their hand when you slapped him?
Obviously it’s not great, but maybe some time on your own, self reflection and working on how you react to things would also do you loads of good.
Slapping someone isn’t the answer as you probably already know, and I hope now you can block him and whoever else that knows him, chalk this up to experience and move on
all the best x

Hi there thank you...yes unfortunately that's me slapped him with the keyring looped over my finger so the keys flung up and hit him near the eyebrow bone.. disgusted with myself.

Definitely will have to have time on my own for sure I need to do some work on myself and even if I didn't have to work on myself I have no support at all with dcs so I'm not going to be able to date again for a long time until they are older which I think helps.

I'm sorry you are feeling sad.
I didn't see you other post but I get the gist from what you have said here. Obviously slapping him wasn't the right thing to do but it sounds like things had gone on preceding this which weren't great.
As the previous poster said, you need to forgive yourself for this moment of madness, we all have them.
Spend time with your kids, do something good for yourself and try to move past this.
Good luck xx

Thank you for your kind words. I'm going to do this. My kids are both disabled and very hard work finding going back to being alone all the time very hard even though we are only on day 2... 🙃 xx