Just that really….. I have reached threshold. How to take the day to day grind, the emotional strain, financial pressure, exhaustion, worry and loneliness.
I do all the stuff I have to, self care; talk to councillor, invest in friends, hobbies, better myself for career ect..,, but I just feel god dam lonely and such a lack of faith or ability to see s future. The loneliness of going it alone and carrying it all in on your shoulders is exhausting. It’s just feeling so empty. Feeling lost in the world and like a fucking failure at relationships. Like there must be something wrong with me. Why can’t I find happiness like everyone else.
is it meant to be this hard?
how do u all cope? Keep moving forward and deal with crippling fear of it all?
I feel constantly guilty if I snap at the kids or I just don’t feel enjoyment from them. I have three under 10, one disabled, and it’s all just feels a lot.
x