Broken.......

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Feel absolutely utter crap in myself, going through medical issues which could be serious and waiting on final answers. Don't feel attractive in myself, other half knows what am going through, and constantly makes sly comments about my weight, never has good things or compliments my body. Yet when In the car he eyes up every young female that walks past. Including younger work colleagues. I know am getting treated as a mug!!! But honestly don't know what to do. I don't feel strong enough. I barely hear from anyone I've known for years to see how am getting on! Always myself doing the contacting, I feel so alone.

Hi op, I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. I know from experience how hard it is when your problems feel multiple and overwhelming and you feel trapped and don’t know where to start to change things.

I'm also sorry to hear about your medical problems. You must feel in limbo until your tests and results come through. It will be very hard to make any decisions while you’re waiting for a resolution. Is there a support organisation or charity for your conditions? I’m wondering if they can help support you right now?

It’s no wonder you’re not feeling great when your partner treats you like that! I think you know you need to leave him and he is contributing to your sense of hopelessness but I also know it’s not easy when your self esteem is on the floor.

I’ve recently had a massive knock to my confidence (huge betrayal by so called friends) and I’ve used it as the impetus to change the things I don’t like about my life, putting myself out there and meeting new people. I’m also prioritising self care and being kind to myself.

Is there anything, even a small thing, that you can do for yourself? Be your own best friend until you’re feeling a little stronger. Wishing you all the best op