Where to start...
She has been my colleague for quite some years now. I always noticed how she is an attractive woman but nothing more than that. She's a bit older than I am (we have a 10 year gap) but defenately looking 15 years younger than her age.
We get along well but since about a year and a half... flirtatious behaviour seems to be intensifying... or something. I can't really put my finger on it. Now... she is just a very outgoing type of person in general. Easy in calling people "hun" or "dear". I think she enjoys flirting because it might make her feel she "still has it".
Every time I see her I get this big smile thrown at me. When we talk and she's within reach she'll often touch me on the arm or the leg.
Last winter there was a staff outing and we spend most of the evening sitting quite close and having a pretty nice conversation about our lives, hopes and dreams. Ever since then I have noticed that I tend to be a bit more flirty towards her also. I like to make her smile. I notice that I don't need a lot of effort to do that. We both openly (in front of other co-workers) will say things that make me think "what's going on here?"
For example... I chose to sit opposite of her a while ago at work. Another colleague told me to move over if I needed a computer. I replied that if I did that I couldn't look into her lovely eyes. The way she lit up at my remark, smiled and clapped her hands like a little girl was very cute :-).
It's funny how we do this in the open and make it look like it's just a joke while at thesame time it doesn't feel like that.
Last staff outing we had there was some alcohol involved. It made her ehm... how do I put this nicely... rub her "behind" against me while she was dancing and having a good time. As said... she is very outgoing, but I didn't see her do that to any other guys. I tried figuring out what she was all about by purposly not sitting at her table. After about an hour or so she did end up at my table. It's hard for me to gauge it correctly, but it felt like there were other "moments" that evening. Just small things, a look, something she says or does.... Ofcourse a drink can make things appear that are not there, but the sense I got was quite strong. I accompanied her home so she wouldn't have to walk alone after dark and we hugged and I got a very quick kiss on the cheek when our ways parted.
Outside of work we don't talk a lot and we don't see eachother. There is little contact on whatsapp. Some funny gifs, loads of laughs from her (come to think of it... almost always when I type her something it is to make her laugh) and the occasional kiss or heart. Nothing excessive. Then again... she is not from the "phone generation".
For now we both have our summer vacation so I won't see her for a while. And maybe that is for the best. I don't really know what to do with the whole situation. I do find myself "missing" her now. Or at least... I think about her. There is a certain urge to contact her on whatsapp although given that digital contact is something often initiated by me I don't know if that is a wise course of action.
She might just think I consider this thesame as she does. A game for fun and giggles. Then again... I could be wrong and she might actually like me for more than just a co-worker. As I said before... she is difficult to read. I'm not really looking for any advice or anything. I just wanted to get this story off of my chest here. Hope you are ok with that.