why is my dad such a bas***d

[saintnikcolas]

its christmas soon and i thought he would want to get over his sulk and talk to me agin but no he is still such a big prat i really feel like going to his house with dd and refusing to leave til he speaks to me

You know what, sweetie? I reckon you should leave him to stew. You have enough to deal with. And you're doing so much with your life (how's your course, anyway?) with your driving and studying and gorgeous daughter - he's stuck stuck stuck in his own bastardly ways. TBH I wouldn't try again on Christmas Day either. I'm really sorry, and I know it's horrible being rejected and insulted by him - I just think that contacting him again would mean going through the same thing once more for you.
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sorry nickola. i tend to agree with MI. You are surrounded by alot of very nasty people by the sounds of it who like to walk all over you i wish i could come and help you. You sound such a lovely girl xx

dont feel guilty at least you know in your heart you have tried! muminlondon i so soooo wish my dad could see my ds he would be soooo proud! I am still grieveing for my dad and its been nearly 10 years the pain seems more intense and the questions why? and why him? anyway you can not make your parents talk to you and there is only so much you can do! do as much as you feel you should and then at least if anything did happen (god forbid it wont) you will never feel the guilt inside and have the words (why didn't I, I wish i had so and so on)

i no i sent him cards so at least i have bothered and i sent a pc of me and dd so he can see how pretty she is thanks fio ive never been called lovely before
college is going really good thanks ive got a uni interview on the 6th of jan,
im loving being at college all the new friends i have got we are all going out for my 21st in january and there is about 20 of us going ive never had more than 2 friends before also im also going to look at a few cars tonite dp said he will buy me one cause of all the shit he has put me through,

im finding the work at collage hard but im not giving up. im going to be a nurse one day and make my dd proun of her mom

i wouls still love to see my dads face when i send him a photo of my graduation

oh dear, I really hope he gets back in touch soon.

he wont untill he needs somethink hje really is a pig

i rang him agian and he didnt answer so i rang his girl friend aparently he was aslepp hes working nights now so he is going to ring me back tonite he is so stouborn x