Help... I'm a bisexual woman who's never had a relationship with another woman.

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So I'm a 43 year old woman and I have been in denial about my sexuality for the majority of my adult life.
Over the last 4 years or so I have slowly accepted and now fully embrace the fact that I am attracted to both men and women. I'm now at the point where I want to have a relationship with a woman but I've no idea how to go about it and even though I know its what I want I'm scared. Here are my reasons.

1. My age: will anyone take me seriously as I'm 43 and never been in a relationship with a woman? I dont want anyone to think I'm just 'dipping my toe' so to speak. I'm not curious, I know what I want, its just taken me a long long time to get to where I am now.
2. How the hell do I meet someone: I have tried going on some dating apps but I have no idea what to do or what to say and unless the profile states the persons sexual orientation I doubt that they are looking for a relationship with a woman. Although surely as I've said women only the apps would only show me women who also said women only or both?
3. Body image: I have low self esteem about my body and I think this would be more difficult to get over with a woman because how do you not compare yourself? Id be terrified that I don't look good enough. I wouldn't find myself attractive (my body anyway) so how would another woman find me attractive? With men I feel insecure about my body too but not in the same way and its hard to explain the difference.

I'm I being daft, is it not as complicated as I'm making it out to be? I could be putting barriers up for myself as this is something I do in most areas of my life. What I would love is to just go out and meet someone who I connect with and take it from there but that is easier said than done.
Any advice appreciated x

Do you want a relationship with a woman or sex with a woman? Only ask because a casual encounter probably easier to come across and might help you find your confidence. I'm in a job where I see lots and lots of naked bodies, nobody is perfect.

I don’t have much advice but I am the same as you, OP. I've known my sexuality for a long time, but I got into a relationship with a man not long after I came out and I'm still with him - so I've never been with a woman either. I don't think it's that uncommon to only understand or accept your sexuality a bit further into adult life. I don't think other women will judge you. I certainly wouldn't, and I don't think any of my women-loving-women friends would either.

@Fluffyrug191 I was thinking a relationship. I dont usually do well with casual because I need to have a connection with the person I'm with for the sex to feel good for me. I'm not totally apposed to a casual encounter though as it might help me break down some of these barriers I've made for myself. Ultimately though I'd be looking for a relationship.

@TitoMojito I have really known for a long time too, I just kept denying it or making up excuses to myself. I laugh at myself now at how many times I totally fancied another woman but brushed it off as nothing. Wasted opportunities and wasted time but better late than never hey!