please help me
my relationship with my boyfriend has gradually gotten worse and worse since the birth of my daughter who is almost 2. I feel i dont know what to do anymore. i made a big mistake a long time ago by hitting my boyfriend around the face, it was a result of me feeling so angry. He would dissapear for hours on end, not come home he would ignore my phone calls. i felt as though i was bringing my daughter up on my own. i bathed her, fed her did everything for her and my boyfriend made no effort to help. My boyfriend quit his job 6months ago as he said he was suffering with depression, he goes out most nights and sleeps most days. He is taking anidepressants and sleeping tablets. He has a bad temper and if i push things too far or shout at him he gets verbally abusive and pushes me around. He always says that i'm the one that made this relationship violent and its my fault. My friends and family tell me to leave it dont argue with him just let him do what he wants, but i cant help it, the anger of what he's doing to this family builds up and i cant leave it. i told him today that i didn't want to be in this relationship anymore, and he just lay there and told me leave him alone, and that he didn't care. i got so angry i pulled him around to face me on the bed and talk to me and then he started getting violent. we have been arguing all day, everytime i tell him i'm not changing my mind he starts pushing me around again. he has gone back to sleep now, but has unplugged all the phones and smashed up my mobile phone so i cant call anyone. i'm so tired and bruised. i have no friends or family to go and stay with, i wouldn't even have money for food if i left. i dont know what to do. we own our house, its a joint mortgage he refuses to leave. he says if i leave him he will try and get my daughter from me. she is everything to me, my life and soul. please help.