Hi all,
Please don’t think I’m horrible! Nothing has ever happened, I haven’t cheated.
Basically, I’ve had strong feelings for someone for around a year and a half. I’m not sure if he has ever had feelings for me…we are friendly, he now has a partner.
A few things really. I’ve spent most of the past year in emotional turmoil. I’ve lost a load of weight due to it. I love my Husband but it’s made me realise that perhaps things aren’t right between us. He is amazing, but we have zero sex life or kissing and haven’t for years. We have a good laugh together and are close, we’ve been through a lot. But I want someone to really want me and my self esteem has plummeted. I
always get compliments over my weight loss etc (now size 12-14) and I think my husband thinks I’m pretty, but he isn’t into sex at all. I don’t fancy it with him either.
Im just not sure how to get past this. It makes me feel so sad and I’m not sure I can imagine being without him but I also find myself looking at other guys constantly.
I think about the person I have feelings for all the time. I think he possible likes me too, but nothing would ever happen. Or perhaps he just knows I like him!
Before Xmas, I received an anonymous text message asking why I’m staying with my H, as he’s gay and the marriage is has been over for a long time…we’re fooling ourselves.
never got to the bottom of this and H denies knowing that it all means.
I just feel in constant emotional turmoil.
I care for H so much, we’re so close and great friends. We sleep in separate bedrooms (started years ago when I had trouble sleeping). Sex life was never amazing really.
I don’t know what to do…