Don't know what to do

[Secretlyneedsmore]

Iv been in a relationship for 10years and iv caught him on sexsites n stuff lots off times but we have tried to get through it but we don't live together but I do love him so much but am just not happy anymore in myself iam scared to let go as I will be totally alone as iv no friends but iam scared to break my own heart as he's my best friend aswell .iv been drinking n stuff and I know that's wrong but the question is is love enough ? He does love me that I know but it's the worry off being alone as it'll be like he's dead to me n it scared me

I’m sorry that you’re in this situation and I’m sorry for being harsh but he does not love you. If you loved you he wouldn’t have been on those sites. It sounds like it’s happened, you’ve told him it upsets you, agreed to work on it and then found out he was still doing it… that is not love. That is a pathetic manchild who doesn’t deserve you. I know that the thought of being alone is scary (my relationship ended in April and I was terrified) but I promise it gets better, you really are better off without him.

Please get yourself some support with the drinking as that is not a healthy coping mechanism. Try bumble BFF to find some friends in your area, sign up to local classes or the gym. There is so much more to life than worrying about a man that is happy to hurt you over and over again.