Just need a rant I think, on holiday at the moment so lots of time to think
I crossed the line with a friend who had finished a 17 year relationship two months earlier (not married, one son, one step daughter, I don't know the ex). At first it felt like it might go somewhere and it was honestly the best sex of my life! But after a while he admitted he wanted his family back and things kind of went back and forth for a while... we kept trying to end it and not speak yet would go a couple of days and he'd 'check in' to see if I was ok
Long story short we were tagged in a Facebook post by the same person on the same day at an event - we weren't there together but I did say hi... but obviously his ex wanted to ask me if I was there with him and the kids. After a few messages it turns out he's been sleeping with us both at the same time (once within 24 hours!) and possibly someone else too! I feel totally blindsided and used. He then had the audacity to deny he'd even seen me on this day we'd last slept together and that I was clearly making up stories (I mean why would I?) Luckily I had screenshots to prove it!
Obviously I can't stand him now and blocked him on everything but I think I was blinded by lust and can't stop thinking about him! I have several seemingly nice genuine guys wanting to see me and make a go of it - including an ex who I've been waiting for for almost 20 years - yet I just... can't. I want to but I can't
Like I said just wanting to rant but would help to hear from anyone else in this situation (or any advice). I've booked a de-stress massage and facial tomorrow at least!)