I lost my mom suddenly when I was 22, we were very close and extremely alike in looks and personality,
A lady once broke down in tears as she told me after a chat how I reminded her so much of my mom.
As we were so alike we fought like cats and dogs but she was my best friend and our silly arguments never lasted long.
We had some wonderful times together and I cherish those memories.
The problem I have is after her death I was so in much desbelif that she was gone it took two years before it finally hit me that she was gone.
Occasionally I have random dreams about her and in the dreams it turns out she's not actually dead ( for example one dream was where I was at home all day and then suddenly my mom and came home and I was so upset as they had spent the day together and now she had to leave again and I was devastated that I didn't get time with her, and in the dream she just leaves without wanting to say anything to me or acknowledge me) when she was alive she took me everywhere with her and my dad, they also had plenty of time together when we would be left at home and as soon as she'd come home I was the first person she call out for with a beautiful smile on her face and her eyes lit up and then when we had the chance we'd chit chat about her time away with my dad, very different from what she's like in the dream.
My question is ,is she trying to send me a message, is she disappointed in who I am, I'm scared that she doesn't love me anymore and I know it may sound stupid but other dreams were similar where she was very distant and cold with me, I'm just scared she's sending a message. I wake up feeling so sad after these dreams. I did talk to my dad about it but not too much as he still adores my mom and I don't want to cause him sadness, he just trys to assure me it's just a dream and not to worry about it but I feel there must be something to it.
I'd give anything to get to spend just 5 minutes with her to tell her how much I miss her.
Does anyone have insight into what this really means