Having second thoughts about divorcing ex

[Unsure101]

I also put this in the Divorce thread but didn't get much feedback so putting it here as well.

So for the last few weeks I've been having this niggling feeling that maybe my ex wasn't so bad after all. (We are in the process of applying for a divorce). Even though I know when living with him that it really was hard, he had alcohol dependency, depression, paranoia, stingy, he didn't like my family, he never helped out with our daughter. He did have good things, but for sure there were so many negative things about him that outweighed the other stuff.
So I left after feeling miserable for quite a while and I was so happy and relieved to be on my own and free of all his issues etc.
However fast forward a few years, I've been doing online dating and just have met men that are either womanizers and want to see different people or guys that just want sex. I never had trust issues with my ex, he never cheated and despite all his issues he was/is a decent person and was loyal to me. I haven't found that in anyone yet.
I'm also going to have to get a mortgage on my own and provide for myself whereas if I had have stayed with my ex, I wouldn't need to worry about housing , paying a mortgage by myself etc.
It's like leaving has given me other problems that I wouldn't have had if I had stayed with him .
But also I know deep down that if I went back, within a week I would probably know I had made a mistake and then would have to go through a separation again and I couldn't put my daughter through that again.
He is a great dad, takes our daughter regularly and looks after her well. I still care about him and would never want anything bad to happen to him.
Please help, I'm so confused. I've only started feeling like this in the last month

OP I mean this kindly - you are looking externally for happiness (especially in romance). Until you are comfortable in your own skin and have solid boundaries about what you want from life you will keep meeting wronguns. Yes buying on your own is scary, yes it would be 'easier' in some ways to be coupled up to share the burden, however you know the reasons you chose to leave are still there.

You don't have to hate your ex, you don't have to keep dating if its not bringing you happiness. Your life is yours to lead however you like.

Rose tinted glasses.

Great dad, my arse. He did fuck all with your daughter when you were together.

If you don’t like OLD, what’s wrong with staying single?

You remind me of someone who advised my dd that it is better to cry in a jacuzzi than cutting onions. Me, give me onions any time.

I never met anyone after I split from my the father of my dd, just the way things turned out but I have not had to deal with living with an alcoholic depressive who doesn't pull his weight and have had a very happy life.

You have not described a single redeeming feature of your ex.
I'd take being single over what you've described any day.
Your actions will become examples to your child. Don't be teaching her to settle for abusive alcoholic people because its better than being alone.
The right guy is out there, but in the meantime you should focus on becoming an independent baddass who had the balls to leave a bad marriage. Stay on track.