6 months ago i found out that my husband of 2 years (we have been together 7 years) had a one night stand with a work mate when i was heavily pregnant with our first child. It actually happened a year and a half ago but he only decided to tell me recently as he thought he had caught a std. As you can imagine i was absolutely devastated! I decided to give our marriage another go as i still love him and had just found out that i was pregnant with our second child. I always beleieved it was totally her fault, chasing after him constantly and he allowed me to think that. Over the past few weeks he has opened up more and more about what actually happened. Although he promises he only slept with her the once (i do believe that!) he admits that he had flirted and kissed her for six months before then.
He assures me that nothing physical or even flirtatious happened after the night they spent together (in my bed!!!!!) but i cant help but think he still had feelings for her and refused to do anthing more, not because he didnt want to but because he knew it was wrong. When she finally left the work place he bought her a pen. He said it was to keep the peace, he was scared she would tell me.
He says he doesnt know why he cheated on me but felt lonely!!!!!!!!!!!! I admit that our relationship was far from perfect while i was pregnant. I lived away from home due to work commitments and we only saw each other at weekends. Dont get me wrong, im not making excuses for what he did, im just very confused. It took him this long to tell me and still i feel more lies are coming out. He assures me that he has told me everything now but to be honest, he has a crap track record!!!! I do love him so much but feel so hurt by his actions. I wasnt good enough for him which is why he did this. How do i know i will be enough in the future. He is a great dad to our daughter and is trying hard to make things up to me, but is it enough????? advice please!!!!!!!!!