I haven’t been down my moms house where my sisters live since the 9th of may which was my sisters birthday. So it’s been over a month, I get anxious going as my partner accuses me of being up to stuff or seeing/speaking to guys or whatever when I’m there so I don’t go anymore, now I make them come here but I feel so sad because my son doesn’t get to go to his nans. I only used to go once a week to see my mom now I literally don’t go at all and tomorrow is my moms birthday and we are doing a meal on Sunday so I’m debating whether to go tomorrow or not because tomorrow it would be me going with my little one and I’m afraid of what he will say at the end of the day when I’m back. Not only that back in January when we broke up I was at my moms with my son less than a week and we got back together. I fell pregnant and he didn’t believe it was his because I was at my moms and he thought I had seen someone but it was his and so he wanted an abortion so we did but I resent him and myself for it because I knew I haven’t and hadn’t done anything not even spoken to anyone. I also always feel sad that I get accused of cheating when I literally haven’t even spoken to anyone let alone do anything.