I broke up with my ex 17 months ago, he left me due to me being pregnant with his baby and he wasn't ready to become a dad at the time, I was obviously heart broken for the breakup and the fact I was going to have a baby alone without a dad, so the emotions was more than a breakup, my main focus was to focus on my pregnancy and try my best to be the best mum I could for my baby, DD was born he wasn't at the birth he had blocked me etc, 5 months goes by and he comes back wanting to meet DD he's since met her and even told me that he still loves me and has feelings for me, but all as I wanted was him to be a good dad for DD although my feelings was still there for him although he put me through hell during my pregnancy for having his baby, it's been 17 months now, I have dated other people I have seen other people and I just can't seem to move on properly I can't get him out of my head it's strange, I still can't seem to move forward, I am the best mum I can possibly be and that is 100% my main focus however I can't seem to find happiness outside of being a mum, I see friends from time to time and I always just feel lost I don't feel myself anymore, I feel like a part of me left when he left me, I feel like an empty feeling and I'm always on edge. We was going out as a family when he would come and see DD but he never fully committed to everything but he always told me he wanted me and DD and that we are a family however he could never give his all and commit to that. I wish I could find happiness and forget about him.