As of today, I said enough was enough. Called it quits. I want him gone and his caravan, but I care and feel guilty. I know he's now playing on my heart strings, emotionally messing up my head by saying he's going to be dead by the end of the week, I don't no what to do anymore, verbally aggressive through texts, loads of messages. I feel guilty that he's basically lost everything, he has 2 members of family that won't help him, he has hardly no friends and will be homeless in his caravan.
For the past 2 months Iv written a diary and noting absolutely everything.
I wonder if I'm going in the right direction, but then I won't have to answer to anyone.
I have two boys, ones autistic and can be physical and I have a 14 year old whose brilliant, but very smart ajd sensible. My eldest can't stand him and has made it known. My youngest has got the greatest relationship with his dad, has never said love you back but doesn't want him to go.
The boys will keep me going. It's just that guilt because I care but just aren't in love with them.
How do you cope with this??