For context
I was with my ex for 26 years, 3 children now aged 23,19 and 13. Eldest two have moved out. Ex is 48 I'm 44.
I'm not clued up on acronyms yet so sorry if it seems like a long post.
So ex and I split almost 9 weeks ago, we'd fallen out of love, things got a bit stale.
He moved out the same day and is currently staying with a mutual friend. After going back and forth with messages about where it went wrong and how we both felt about each other, we decided after 2 weeks to try and find the spark that was missing, to try and get back what we had all them years ago. Even though he said he wasn't in love in me anymore, he put up a fight when I said we should go our separate ways. He got so angry and said some horrible things (I did too, so it's not just on him)
Why would he put up such a fight if he isn't in love with me?
Over this time to now, we've had dates, had many conversations and things are good, we've hugged and had kisses but that's it. He's bought me gifts and I've done the same. Little surprises. Nice little messages to wake too. hes a ling distance delivery driver, so often is away 1-2 nights a week. We find now we have so much to talk about as we're doing our own things (we pretty much lived in each others pockets) Everything is just NICE.
I want more, AIBU?
I want to feel desired again, i want to feel wanted, I'm beginning to feel like he's a friend with no benefits. I know it's only been a few weeks and maybe I'm rushing things but I just want to feel like he does want to be with me. Our relationship is just at snail pace. I don't know what to say to him in terms of knowing that he wants this to work, i wonder if im just there for his comfort.I just want to see a little bit of commitment I guess. I'm so confused right now and really don't know how to deal with this.