So nervous

[traumaisreal]

I am going back to work after a month off due to mental health after a brutal breakup. I have to work with him & the girl he betrayed me with they are very happy. It's been a really tough time for me. I am still in a fragile state and absolutely terrified about going back but I can't put it off any longer.
It's been 6 months and I am still living this nightmare. Not sure why I am posting this just really scared

Time for a new job OP

How awful. Hold your head high and plan your exit. Virtual hug OP.

This sounds totally understandable xx

Update your CV, look for a new job by signing up for updates and doing searches on job sites and take back control of your life xx

Don't do it. You don't sound ready and even someone with robust mental health would find that incredibly distracting and distressing.

Can yu get signed off with stress for one more month and do your best to look for a new job in the meantime, even seasonal work, that would give you an income while you look for a new start.

Your health is paramount. Going back when you feel this way could set you back.

If there truly is no choice in the matter, then decide in advance how you will behave and some empowering thoughts to armour yourself with. Something like: I am strong and capable. I can handle this.
Or Today I will earn X amount of money by doing Y. Just literally focus on the job at hand.
And: I choose to mix with kind, respectful people and seek out their company at work and socially. (Try to spend time in and out of work with people who are supportive of you and recognise how hard returning must be.)
You could visualise yourself as a tall giant and them as wriggling worms.

Hard as it is, try to remember you don't need or want cruel and untrustworthy people in your life so keep your distance from them if possible.

Don't do it. Get signed off again and focus on job hunting.

I'm not surprised you're scared, scarred and anxious about all this.

Are you certain you can't take another month off as pps have suggested? Get applying for other jobs quickly. Don't subject yourself to more misery.