Just that. I've lost (and I mean lost, only a bit left in shares) a lot of money. It was money from unused inheritance we both agreed to try shares but I was left in charge. I am 100 percent sure my depression caused a lot of the loss as I chased losses and spiralled (new baby, he had an affair, I hated my job) We are not in debt (other than paying off mortgage but that's fine between our salaries). I think I'm just venting as I'm wound up in nots and don't know whether to say anything or just keep quiet until at least a significant amount is returned from the shares I have left. Genuinely thought of leaving as I'm so lost. Suicidal thoughts but I won't act on it.
Perhaps I'm posting for someone to tell me I'm not awful. Or perhaps I just needed to share it on here as it's eating me alive.