If I can get through this. All of you can get over anything.
What I knew already:
Did cocaine before. He said 2 or 3 times !
Some of his family are criminals. They do drugs, one is in prison for murder ( only found this out recently ).
Saw a text before to his friend saying he'd bang a much older co worker, what he'd like to do her etc
He laughed at issues I have with sex to my best friend a few months ago - that I completely blocked out.
He told me he was sick in February. He got his bloods done etc. He wasn't as affectionate anymore and stopped complimenting me and hadn't snogged me in months.
I ignored all these signs. I ignored them because I thought he was physically unwell. I knew he loved me !
What I found out 3 weeks ago... I asked about his savings and his face went red.
Cocaine habit. Does it most weeks.
Gambling addict and I mean 1000 not 50 quid.
I asked out straight please tell me if there's anything else. He swore on a family members life there wasn't.
I went for a little walk and came back to the house. I got a message request when I walked in.
Hey girl...
Oh yes. He had a girl online ( who isn't even on this continent) who sends him nudes. He started chatting to her last November. He saved a picture of her vagina the night of his birthday at his party I organised.
I left his house and took all my belongings with me.
Next few days just got texts about how sick he was. I met him 5 days later. We went for a massive walk in the woods.
The snapchat was all her. She sent them, he never asked. He saved the picture of her vagina cause it was funny looking 🙂
While in the park, he was flirting non stop with me. Even at one point went to grab my arse. I peed in the woods and he kept looking at me suggestively.
Now let me tell you. Yes he might get over his addictions but in a family like his, no support and full of enablers... what's the liklihood of him changing ?
Lying on a family members life. Letting me organise birthday, valentines, Christmas etc.. lying through all that is something no doctor will ever be able to fix. He has a serious lack of empathy no matter how many tears he shed that day.
His family ADORE me. Let me tell you. He won't ever live this down. I know his Mum will mention me for years to come.
Yes I love him. The image he portrayed but I don't love that man that's out there now in the world. He is a pos. And me ? Well I deserve the world and more.
After the park and he went home, I blocked him and his family on everything and I threw out cards, photos etc.
I work in the medical field and have had 3 people mention the word sociopath around me... I think that's him.
I tell you it is weird missing him. I miss the fun and charismatic side then I remember that's how he attracted me.
I'm 6 ft and he was 6 ft 6. I hope I meet someone I'm that physically attracted to again. I won't be settling anytime soon.