Anxiety ruining everything. Don't know what to do.

[CaffeineMcQueen]

Hi,

I've always struggled with anxiety and occasionally depression, but recently my anxiety seems to have gone up a geer and it's becoming crippling. It's affecting my relationship with dp, dc, friends, everyone really.

I've had lots of therapy, but nothing seems to really work. Lots of papering over the cracks.

I'm really starting to feel like I'm dragging dp down. They often wake up to me crying, shaking or even having a full blown anxiety attack. This seems to be happening mote frequently at night.

Honestly, I feel like a needy baby and I can't stand that. I try to cry in silence or leave the room, so I don't wake dp, but I'm inevitably disturbing them. They have a very demanding job.

My brain is constantly in terror mode and I don't know how to turn it off.

I've considered medication, but am very concerned about side effects, which I guess is my anxiety talking.

Not sure why I'm posting really. Feeling really alone, scared, emotional and just bloody exhausted after 1 hours sleep.

Be good to hear from those who can relate or even better, help. Think I really need it now.

Thank you.

@MyTruthIsOut actually I was prescribed these as a sort of in-between solution, as my gp knew I was still reluctant to take anything else. Then I did some research and apparently they play havoc with your sleep...like everything else apparently! I'm glad you've had so much success with them though.

Thanks again for all the helpful and supportive replies. I really appreciate them.

Sertraline knocked me out for a fortnight. I slept and slept, but then I do that with depression anyway - I shut down rather than face my feelings.

It might be a very different experience for you! Try the meds.

The way I see it is that every drug in the world plays havoc with something.

I have another health condition that I have to take medication for and the side effects aren’t the best but I take the tablets because I know I need them to function and to have a normal life.

Sometimes you have to weight up the good versus the bad.

And just because some people have side effects with a particular drug that doesn’t mean everyone else does too.

Sometimes you need to take a leap of faith because your quality of life is important and a fear of medication shouldn’t control how you are able to live your life.

Last night I had to phone an ambulance had a pain down back of left arm that keep coming and going I have anxiety and health anxiety I had sweaty hand was crying anyway ambulance service said I did not trigger an ambulance so go to my urgent treatment centre so of I went I had an ECG which was absolutely fine my BP was 152/92 heart rate 114 they sent me home saying I was having a panic attack I've woke this morning and still feel very anxious anyone got some tips? Please someone talk to me I have had this for 17 years now but it's got so uncontrollable I can't even stand being in my own home x

Buproprion was a great fit for me when I was experiencing anxiety and intrusive thoughts at night. I found it very mild and it would just take the edge off so I could get perspective. It didn't numb me at all, I still felt anxiety, I was just able to calm myself down and be rational about my fears. Good luck OP, medication is nothing to be ashamed of, it can give you your life back.

Sertraline stopped me sleeping for the first night, it was so odd, but after that it’s been absolutely fine! I take mine just before bed but everyone is different.
The side effects are nothing compared to the good effects!

How are you feeling now OP?