And has been for the whole of our marriage on and off. When he’s good he’s great, but when he’s in a low patch it’s awful. Absolutely miserable, sees everything in worst way, is grumpy, short tempered, I am walking on egg shells and I find myself trying to constantly cheer him up/keep him happy which I know isn’t great.
I am worried our children will pick up on it. I’ve suggested counselling/antidepressants but he gets angry if I suggest them and says I am making him more depressed. He’s currently in a low patch and he has said twice this week that he ‘may as well kill himself’.
I am so fed up, exhausted. I want him to get better. He has cried every day for the last week.
i don’t know what to do.
If I am totally totally honest, part of me is wondering if maybe one day I want to leave. But does that make me an awful person? I wonder if I would be happier on my own with my children. I love him, but I am getting so fed up with this.