So long story short, he cheated on me (not sexually) when I had given birth so for the first 2 months of baby’s life when I suffered from Ppd he would be out all hours of the night then get mad at me for questioning it and calling me a nag. And the month up to my birth he verbally and emotionally abused me when I questioned him about girls made me sit there and agree to being good for nothing and useless. I would cry in corners and hope to die it was the worst time of my life I was so weak I let him do this to me and then when I caught him cheating he stopped everything and begged for forgiveness and me being a fool agreed and then we’ve had issues recently where his downloading his ex’s old texts which he said were because I told him I don’t feel loved and she made him feel loved so he was looking for ways to show me how etc and last night he said to me if it was for my personality he would leave me but it’s my looks as if he left and got horny he would always think of me. But then he says things like he loves me, cares for me and tbf he shows it too but it’s the remarks in between. I’ve been so weak, I did turn down the marriage but his been mentioning it and I ended up agreeing like again a fool. Although I had told him I wasn’t ready, now he is saying we will get married this year. I know I need to leave this relationship especially after the comment he made yesterday but how do I do this? I’ve finally seen it for what it is and I know it’s late but please don’t be mean. But it’s so hard to leave a relationship in which the other person is SOOOOO good with words that you end up staying I’ve tried so many times but his that good at words I end up staying. And our LO loves having 2 parents in one house and has a great relationship with him and the guilt of breaking the family eats me up.. how do I end it and make sure I don’t go back he really gets in my head I don’t know how to do it and what to say I get so nervous speaking to him I shut down.