Drifting apart

[Hackitnow]

I've been married for 15 years now together for 18 since I was 17 im now 34 he's 43 have 3 girls that don't live with us anymore been through everything from homelessness to drug use to family deaths u name it we have survived it main thing always a problem is lack of intimacy affection just straight ignoring me we barely say 5 words to each other he says its cuz were around each other all the time nothing to talk about but even when were watching TV or something simple where he could just put his arm on me or something he sits there if I try to lay by or on him he gets up starts doing something else im lonely and cry everyday now when I'm sitting in house he outside again doing God knows what his schedule is work comes home goes outside for rest of day comes in and immediately falls asleep watching TV help what can I do

I feel in a similar position. My husband and I barely speak, he has always finched if I go to touch him. I want fun, and noise, silliness and laughter. But it's like he just lives in the same house but not a part of the family. Always trying to jolly him along. It's exhausting. There's a lot that you can do, but it depends if you can be bothered and if he will make an effort. I am past trying with mine