Hello. Sorry for this rant.
I have worked for 15 years and during this time I also supported the partner at the time we bought a house and did our wedding. I got pregnant within 4 months of marriage. He did hurt me a few times before the wedding but I like a idiot forgave and moved on.
He's nice not evil but he's also very selfish and arrogant.
At the time I had my son I was working in mental health and also in probation. I ended up taking up two jobs because I was sick of him telling me i don't earn enough. My family would look after my son for the day and I'd come and see him for 3 hours and then go to my evening shift till 1 am. I did this for 2 years and I got burnt out as my son wasn't a good sleeper either and I was the one tending to his needs non stop. Hubby was useless. He tried to help but didn't know how to and the child would.get more frustrated.
My husband kept telling me to leave my mental health job go into teaching as I'll be very good at that. Eventually I got sick of him and I started to hate my job and see the worst in and then left it. Within a week I started a masters course to become a teacher so I hadn't even given it deep thought. When I started the course I hated it, i was working at a distinction level. But I hated the course and the marking and planning etc. Just too much to do. I passed anyway. My son was very ill throughout this with horrible tonsillitis and reoccurring infections that would not be treated with antibiotics. It stopped working. Eventually we took him.provately through husbands work insurance and had his adenoids etc removed after they assessed him. His ears were blocked as a result of non stop infections too. Poor baby.
This was in 2021. I graduated and then I started looking for jobs but didn't know what to go for as I didn't want to teach the subject I trained in. I also felt like I was forcing myself to look for such jobs because in a way I felt like.i had to prove myself to him. Anyway I ended up getting into teaching assistant jobs becaus ei was too afraid to take up teaching I dunno why I just didn't trust myself enough to be able to do a good job. Last year I got a skills coach job but the company was sooo toxic I ended up leaving as mu anxiety went though the roof and the ceo bullied the hell.out me.further making me hate anything teaching related. All this time for about 2.5 yrs my husband was supporting our little family. I always kept hearing I am.sole bread winner. You don't know what you want to do. I have seen other women earn and look after five kids why can't you do it? Other girls r doing x y z and why can't you? I aim Hugh but I can't travel far because of you and our son as u don't drive. Anyway he made me fucking pregnant this year when I was looking for a job. I was sooo ill and I had and still do have hypermesis. I'm 6 months pregnant on anti sickness meds that make me so drowsy. I try my level.best I cook food and ensure house stuff is all done. He helps occasionally. He never cooks because be doesnt know how to. Just knows how to eat and shit it out..
Anyway today I said to him I think I need to start getting some baby clothes for the baby bag like sleep suits etc just incase and also I need to pack my hospital bag so will need to get something. Mind you I have never asked him for anything specifically. The only things I tell him we need is food for grocery when he asks. I don't ask.him.to get me x y z. I'm living in scraggs lol. Or my sister or mum help me sometimes. Anyway he just started moaning saying women always complain their never great full I am the only one paying for this brick and house. I cant afford everything. He's on a 50k wage mind you. Yes mortgage is abit high but isn't everyone's? He goes I can give u money end of month when I get paid I was like thats fine. Dont worry. Then he said it again I am.the only one paying for everything I go I just need a couple of things for the baby. Not alot. He goes I will go with my dad to the next staff discount Coz his dad works there and I hate his backwards chauvinistic religious dad who swears at women. I said I don't wanna go with him and next staff shop.wont have the same sizes its just random pieces and if your lucky you'll find something decent. Anyway he just went on and I started crying. He then went down and suddenly transferred money to me and said oh your being emotional which means you want to buy the things yourself. I go no it's emotional because you make me feel like an absolute shitbag who is sat here being lazy wanting your money. So I sent it back to him.and said stuff the money up yoir arse. I paid for absolutely everything when my son was born.he didn't pay towards anything. Until recently and my son is 5 and even then he counts like oh everything is so expensive. Like fuck you u skingey cunt. I cant wait to win the lottery so I can secretly buy a house renovate it and then quitely move out with my kids giving them a happy peaceful life where they grow into loving kind beings who don't judge people. I always fantasise about leaving him
When hes nice he's nice but when he's all cocky about his money he's a prick. I can't go anywhere at the moment. We are selling our house so hopefully next house eiwll be cheaper and I'll get some money from the sale to keep. I just feel so lonely despite being married. My dad sent me money today as I ended up crying to my family and they all said they'll help me. I go I think he expects me to just keep the baby naked the daft bastard. We're not flintstones I will need eventually buy her clothes. Which I obviously will when I get house sale money but its just awful.how men count the fuckers. Don't make women pregnant esp if u think its a pain providing for them. I wish i was working this time round too so I don't have to feel like I'm begging the bastard.
Thanks for reading x