I'm a complete mess today.
Doubts about my marriage. It isn't great. We're not speaking. If we do, we argue and he always wins and I just feel even more shit about myself.
Watching my gorgeous little 3 year old DD paint and we're both too miserable to give her any attention. I feel desperately sorry for her. She loves her mummy and daddy and it would destroy her if we break the family up.
Had a sickness phobia last few years and trying to sort it out. Spent hundreds on therapy that hasn't worked. Laid here on the sofa with crippling stomach pain because I need to eat, but daren't in case I'm sick. It's not like this all the time, but it's horrific when it flares up like this.
I feel like my life is about to implode and it's a horrible, horrible feeling.
I don't even know what I want from this thread. Probably needs to be in mental health.
But I just don't know what to do. I just feel incredibly sad for my daughter, I feel sad that our marriage isn't working when I desperately want it to.