I'll make this short(edit- I failed) But basically my partner and I are living together with our 9 month old daugher. Since having her I have probably had some hormonal issues and struggled with sleep deprivation and mood swings.
My partner (now ex as I ended things) has referred to me during arguments as a btch, cnt, miserable b*tch, evil, asshole mental, told me during an argument he felt like punching me in the face, "Your whole family is mad... they live in a little shitty council house" etc etc. He acknowledges he shouldn't say these things and at times I have become so angry I've said mean things back.
Due to some things that happened and fundamental differences in views on things such as finance (he owns house, I pay rent which includes half of mortgage, he said he would never add me to the deed and whilst I was pregnant and engaged he asked for a prenup, and also when I asked to contribute less during mat leave he initially said no and only let me do so begrudgingly), I do not think the relationship is healthy and I am in a bad mood a lot of the time because there is so much resentment and I cantforget things he has said about me and my family.
He says it's because I'm miserable and always in a mood or picking a fight that he calls me names and that I've ruined the relationship and I should be happy because our life is "perfect".
I am waiting on social housing. I am terrified I'm making a mistake and I should just stay and try to be happy. He loves his daughter, does housework and childcare but I still don't feel loved. But I worry that when daughter is older she will hear insults thrown at me if I am in a mood or "complain" about something (nag about housework etc). He says he obviously would never call me names in front of her if she was old enough to understand.
I jist need some reassurance I think. Does anyone regret leaving a relationship that had its good points and being a single mum? I just don't think I'll ever be happy with him, he says I'll never be happy with anyone.